This is an ongoing project I began around 2013 and it continues. I don’t know if it will ever be completed.

My childhood was full of sadness with good times sprinkled in as I grew up. I have good memories and many sad and dark memories too.

I’ve spent a lot of time working on my feelings and thoughts about growing up. I’ve had to let go of people that ultimately did not care about me the way I cared for them.

I also learned through much work, that I am not the scapegoat anymore. Adults blaming a child for her decisions is simply unacceptable, yet that’s what happened to me time and again.

I try not to blame them. They weren’t the kind of people that knew how to be caring stable adults in a child’s life.